February 10th, 2008 3:38PM
Lately, Ankoo and I have been having some pretty serious discussions, which is certainly positive, and it's the way that I can remember our relationship being when we fell for each other about a 1000 days ago :)
For the people who only know me thru the world of technology, I guess I need to go back a bit and explain. My sweetheart and I met back in October of 2006 and were together 18 months when things started falling apart, partially my fault and partically his. We loved each our emmensely, but were struggling with where each of our lives were going individually and as a couple. I would go so far to say that we agreed 90% of the time on where we could see our lives in the next 5, 10, 20 years, but the places we differed were big, and by big I mean we made them gargantuan because we were unsure how to work things out. On top of that stress, last year was a horrific year for my family, and I found myself trying to pour my entire being in to dealing with the reality of the situations and trying to be a rock for other family members,. Sweetie and I were both also trying to graduate from Auburn with the FEAR looming over our heads of what that would mean for us... ie. He's from South Alabama and I'm from purdy North Georgia.... Not ideal to say the least. (It's 4 1/2 hrs, which may sound not horrible until u take in he'll be working weekends and i'm working weekdays) Anyways, we took time apart, both uncertain whether that would be the end for us or not, and throughout many opsticals we were there for each other when tragedies hit, and life kept tumbling. Don't worry--If you are in the mood to judge us for getting back together after being apart for 5 months go right ahead. I've seen the looks, and heard the advice, and I 100% understand, but for us the best thing was to have that time to realize why we had loved one another to start with. We're young, and we are human-- we make mistakes, but we also know how to fix them. All of that has lead back to the open conversations that we have with one another now-- about the "now" and about the future...
Skipping forward, we've been talking seriously about going on a mission trip together sometime in the next 12 months, and I'm so floored at his actual desire to go. He's heard me talk for a long time about the missions that I was apart of locally growing up and about Cheryl and my trip with her church this past summer to Costa Rica, and has a desire to go himself-- not necessasarily Costa Rica, but somewhere. I have a sincere passion for missions and to continue to travel whether it's here in North America or abroad to share the love that God has and to be able to tell others about the relationship with him that I've had for the last 18 years. I thank God every single day that He continues to speak to Ankoo's heart.
I think sometimes as much as we like to say, "Ofcourse my boyfriend/husband understands the things I'm passionate about! Why in the world would he not "get it"?".... sometimes we as women don't always "get" why men say or like certain things and vice versa, so when it comes to my almost leaning on obsessive need to reach out to children ,wheveever and whenever God calls me to it's important to me that Ankoo be at my side, and not just be understanding that I love kids, but that he trully has an opportunity to see with his eyes what can come of giving of yourself, and the reasons why I'm so drawn to mission work with children. I just want to always be able to share with one another the joys that God brings to our lives because if we ever stop leaning on God and making our choices based on Him, that's when we will inevitably fall apart.
Humbled by Him,
1 comment:
Better to discuss this things now honestly and openly than to pretend like they don't exist and later realize(after marriage possibly) that they are deep issues!
Very wise!!!
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